03/09/2017

today i will start one new road on my life
in jesus' name i will win this TOC and  all the thing that make me feel down
yes, i will win it.

Don't Say Nothing

Don't say nothing, keep all this thing by me
I don't worry about it if we are not this way
It is all real my lies, and this way doesn't spoil me

Nights and days fill themselves, our eternal love and hate
I imagine you and fix you, I do the scene that I want
I take off my cloth to you, it is my bigger love fiction
I remade you just to my pleasure

I want you so much
Just to my pleasure
I want you so much
Just to my Pleasure


Don't come now with this insinuations
OF your defects or of some normal fear
Maybe you aren't nothing that I imagine
But if you are not, It doesn't hurt me



20/07/2017--------Thursday.17:42 pm
rainy day in my Room
I'm so so!
But I am enjoying the music.

FANTASY

CALL ME, TELL ME, TALK TO ME ABOUT YOUR LIFE
BUT TELL THE TRUTH WITH LOVE TO IT NOT HURT ME
YOU LIE TO ME SAYING THAT MISS ME
AND SAY THAT DIDN'T FORGET ME YET
SAY THAT HER LOVE IT'S ME

CONFESS THAT I WAS RIGHT AND YOU WERE WRONG
DISGUISE DON'T SAY THAT THIS MAN MAKE YOU HAPPIER
LIE TO ME, HIDE THE TRUTH
DREAM IS BETTER THAN SUFFER
LIE TO ME AND HELP ME TO LIVE

LET ME THINK THAT ALL THIS IS FANTASY
LET ME THINK THAT I HAVE YOU ALL THE DAYS
LET ME THINK THAT I NEVER LOST YOU
LET ME LOVE YOU MORE TODAY THAN BEFORE
UNLESS ONE MOMENT, I WANT TO HAVE YOU HERE



22/05/2017
MONDAY, AFTERNOON

STAY WITH ME

I LOVE YOU STAY WITH ME
YOUR WAY OF TO BE TAKE ME AND I DID NOT PERCEIVE
I WANT YOU, BUT YOU NEED TO BELIEVE IN ME
GIVE ME YOUR HEART AND I WILL GIVE YOU BACK IN DOUBLE THE  PASSION
TO YOU MY CARD ARE ALL IN THE TABLE, I CAN'T , I DON'T WANT ANY SURPRISE TO US
OUR LOVE IS BEAUTY, SO BEAUTY, NOTHING CAN BE MORE BEAUTY THAN OUR LOVE
OUR LOVE IS BEAUTY, SO BEAUTY, NOTHING CAN BE MORE BEAUTY THAN OUR LOVE
OUR LOVE

IT'S TO YOU THAT I SING THIS SONG
IT'S TO YOU THAT I SING THIS SONG


22/05/1992
MONDAY, AFTERNOON

I assumed you to the Brazil

To be happy to me don't cost expensive
If you are of side me, I feel so good
You always win me with your way
What is the mystery that you have

I packed the bags there is more than one week
It's lacking you call me to we run away together
I moved my profile to "dating"
Before you accept me, I assumed you to Brazil

why I love you? I don't know, But I want to love you more and more
what in all my life the people make to me, you made in less of a month








09/05/2017
tuesday, 15:55
In my Humble home

The Angels praise you

The angels praise you and the church worship you
Singing hallelujah holy is the Lord
The angels praise you and the church worship you
Singing hallelujah  holy is the Lord

Wonderful, Counselor, Power God
Father of eternity, prince of peace
the God that win all the fights
the God that make all the things
The whole earth exalt the greatness this God
cause he is always loyal and give victory to you  

my soul

God!

I have lived hard days in my life, you know it, i have suffered since many years, my soul is soul cold of sadness, i am just remembering how good is to be happy, i wonder myself if it will endure until my end, why the things are so hard to me, ooh life you why you hit me this way, you doesn't have pity of me, i loved you so much, i remember when we walk together, we were so happy i don't know what i made to receive it from you😟

let's walk together! let's celebrate you again! don't be so bad with me! let's see the horizon again and walk together beyond of it

i think it is in time of stop with it, i don't support it , i don't like to live this way its hard to me see the passing and i live this way, i can't see exit i tried all the ways

nor my dreams are dreams, they are just a way yes they are just a way, i am living a poor life, i lived until 13 years old, just it! the pleasure finished in these days, i am just beeing true with you life, i am just being true with myself, i don't have to lie to myself, i made it for many times, i saw the life yes i see you passing like a train, no one can help me, no one can understand me!

i think these words are enough maybe they are thinking that i am the dumb that live one lived one life sadness maybe they don't have the cure to my sad.

my heart is beating toward the happiness, but she is so rude with me.

good days for you that one day "maybe" will read this words of a young that live this sadness and...




Blue Sunday, 16/04/2017, Mari-pb, in a black hammock, 00:32.

my crazy mind

i have one strange mind
i have supported my mind, the most difficult is that it lives inside of me, since many years ago i have been with this pain that it is almost insupportable, my soul sometimes stay like a prison, and it is my TOC, i don't desire to my enemy , it is strange life like if you be two people, and you believe in this two people the same proportion, my life is one crazy life, i just stay here thinking how would be my life without this sick, i think it would be so happy, i would live like the most of people, but i am here with this pain in my soul, just supporting what no one can see, it is difficult because just my person can see what i have lived during many times, if i tell this problem to some people they surely will not to understand what i am saying, it hard to live with it, i imprisoned myself, the world is so free and brigth outside and i am here in this world ice and dark. maybe if i did not have this sick i would love/embrace/look/kiss/smile the people better. if you are reading this message, look toward the horizon and see, don't look at the sorrow if you do it you can develop this bad feeling that i have felt many years, it is like chain that take your mind and tight it until you don't see what the life has of better for you
my dear, i have hope in God yet, if one i turn myself crazy, believe in me, until the crazy person will find Jesus.
one of  my desire is to live out of my mind, of course "the bad side"
God bless me, i think that i will not support this pain until the end of my life.

TAKE CARE OF ME

ARRIVED THE DAWN, SO MUCH TIME I DON'T SEE YOU
THIS FEELING IS HURTING MY HEART
MY LIFE IS LONELINESS, IS LONELINESS
 I LOOK AND ON OUR BED IS LACKING JUST YOU
I TRIED, I MADE EVERYTHING TO FORGET YOU
IT IS HARD TO CONTROL THE HEART

AND IN OUR ROOM THE MEMORIES OF THIS LOVE
I FEEL THE SMELL OF THE FRAGANCE THAT YOU LEFT HERE ON THE SHEAT OF OUR BED
JUST A DESIRE TO CAN FIND YOU AGAIN, IT WILL BE BEAUTY TO SEE YOU DELIVER YOURSELF TO ME
I WANT TO LISTEN YOU SAY THAT LOVE ME YET
COME SAY TO ME THAT YOU LOVE ME

TAKE CARE OF ME, EMBRACE ME
JUST YOU DON'T SEE THAT THIS LACK OF YOU IS HURTING ME
TAKE CAR EOF ME, HELP ME TO LIVE
I SWEAR TO YOU, IT IS HARD TO FORGET YOU.

FAST TRAIN

IT IS NOT ABOUT HAVE ALL THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD TO YOURSELF

IS ABOUT TO KNOW THAT IN SOMEWHERE SOMEONE TAKE CARES OF YOU

IS ABOUT TO SING AND KNOW TO HEAR MORE THAN YOUR OWN VOICE

IS ABOUT TO TO DANCE IN THE RAIN OF GRACE THAT DROP DOWN ON US

IS TO KNOW FEEL YOURSELF INFINITY, IN THE UNIVERSE SO VAST AND BEAUTY

IS TO KNOW DREAM

AND TO MAKE BE WORTH ALL THE VERSE OF THE POEM ABOUT TO BELIEVE 

IT IS NOT ABOUT TO REACH THE TOP OF THE WORLD 

AND TO KNOW OF WON

IS ABOUT TO CLIMB AND FEEL

THAT THE PATH TURNED YOU POWERFUL

IS ABOUT TO BE SHELTER 

AND TO BE LODGING IN OTHERS HEARTS

AND TO HAVE FRIENDS WITH YOU

IN ALL THE SITUATIONS

WE CAN'T  HAVE EVERYTHING

WHAT WOULD BE THE GRACE OF THE WORLD IF BE THIS WAY?

SO, I PREFER THE SMILES 

AND THE GIFTS THAT THE LIFE GIVE BROUGHT 

NEAR TO ME

IT IS NOT ABOUT ALL THAT YOUR MONEY IS ABLE TO BUY

IT IS ABOUT EACH MOMENT AND SMILES TO SHARE 

IT IS NOT ABOUT RUN AGAINST THE TIME TO HAVE MORE 

CAUSE' WHEN YOU LESS WAIT, THE LIFE PASSED TO BACK

TAKE YOUR SON ON THE LAP 

SMILE AND HUG YOUR PARENTS 

WHILE THEY ARE HERE 

CAUSE' THE LIFE PASS SO FAST, PARTNER 

AND WE ARE JUST PASSAGER THAT FASTLY GO AWAY 

26/02/2017, SUNDAY, O1:17 A.M.

Our luck

you say that think so much in me
you say that are wanting see me
you say that remember me a lot
i believe in you

I am knowing everything
I reading yours scraps
my photos that you liked
I am following you

so, what will us make ?
so, say to me !
if you want i'm wanting you too

chorus

so much smiles and you wanting the mine
so much eyes looking to me and i wanting the yours
i don't doubt, it was not by luck
if the love hitted our doors, what luck was ours


21/02/2017, thursday afternoon.

MY SILLY FEAR

Sometimes i think that i should to tell you more times

I love you, i want you more than anything

 Just this night come to live here, here 

there is person that arrive and change our plans

and make our lives walk ahead 

now i know where i will go

in this life we can not take nothing 

within us we always wait 

one love that can figure up, to complete 

CHORES 

our feelings are common 

the love of your life is me 

everything that are mine today are your too

and the end don't need rime.